Well…It’s been 3 years.
3 years since I started this blog, 3 years since diagnosis, and 3 years of inactivity on this site as though I had disappeared off the face of the earth. Let me first offer an apology at the very least to myself for not continuing at the very least a journal of my rheumatic life. I had intended to write so much more as a means to track my flare ups and I guess as a way to document my life to look back on sometime in the future.
So why have I returned to journal about this now? After the long absence what is the point? Honestly…I don’t 100% know. Perhaps I am at another low point in my life like I was 3 years ago at diagnosis and needed a platform to express myself? However, this time round, with (hopefully) greater maturity I want to take this seriously. I have learnt a lot in the last 3 years about living with rheumatoid arthritis. Heck, I have been living with it unknowingly for the majority of my childhood. I want to share with people the ways I live around it, ways that I believe have reduced the frequency of flare ups, and ways to improve my quality of life with it. Me and rheumatoid arthritis; we’re practically old (annoying) friends.
By way of an update, I am currently at the tail end of a flare up in my right hand. It first started on Saturday. You can tell when it is starting. It slowly creeps up on you like a dull ache in your joints that you brush off initially as stiff muscles, but when it doesn’t get better through out the day nor the next day alarm bells starts ringing. The gradual crescendo to a flare up is one of the saving graces of my experience with rheumatoid arthritis. It at least lets me prepare ahead for the week whilst the pain is bearable and the strength has not left my hand completely. Typically, my flare ups have lasted a week before I regain full use of my hands again. As mentioned in my last post, flare ups can be devastatingly crippling. I’ve had times where I lacked the strength to even brush my teeth!
My plan with this is to upate once a fortnight. I will cover things like:
- Flare ups (if any), and how to cope with it.
- My past experiences
- Things I found difficult or unchanged
- Planning for your future
- And more stuff as soons as I think of topics.
For now, I will be cleaning up and updating the website. I hope this will help somebody somewhere at some point in their life. I welcome you to stay and read some of my older posts. Having re-read them myself, I didn’t realise how raw I came across with my feelings upon being diagnosed. Besides correcting for grammar and spelling I have left them as they had been 3 years ago.